Like so often
I turn away from You
In times I need You most
Like a rose hides during winters
I hide
When You want me to hold on
And I keep asking
That You forgive me
But I don’t understand
How Your goodness
Stretches so far
To forgive me
Every time
And I’m standing
By Your ocean
Wondering why
You want to raise me up
When I only have myself
To blame
Even during times
I tell myself I’m lonely
I gainsay myself
Still believing
You won’t forsake me
And I catch a glimpse
Of my true Father
In everything
As far as horizon stretches
As far as stars can reach
Knowing
You seek me
You find me
Beyond edge of time
Even when I feel shattered
Beyond mending
You give me a reason
To believe
Because
You don’t demand
Perfectness
From the frail child
In me
